Official Sap

So being a mom has changed me in ways I could not even imagine. Crazy weird ways...

I have always been an awkward person. I don't handle serious situations very well. I tend to lean towards sarcasm if i feel people are being too emotional... I would rather lighten the mood to ease the situation for me. which sometimes tends to make the situation more awkward for whoever is talking to me. but hey at least it makes it better for me :)
But anyways. back on point. I cry at movies, TV shows, commercials, songs... but if you put me in a situation in real life you would expect me to tear up at. I usually end up laughing, and not because i am heartless and find sad moments funny. But because... I really think its my nervous trigger. Its weird I know.

But now after having Maddux its like this quality i have has been magnified. I never understood the movie Juno. Everyone loved it... and i thought it was okay but I didn't get it. Well Saturday night i was watching the movie alone... it came on TV. And i find myself sobbing hysterically... Before I just thought the movie was a little weird and in parts a little over dramatic. But this time I found myself understanding Jennifer Garners character so much.. it was apparently emotional for me. I still believe one of my favorite parts was the two colors of yellow on the nursery and her wanting the perfect color. and her butt head of a husband not thinking this was important.. and well this brought me back to the memories of Jerry thinking i was absurd for .. well for basically everything.

But anyways... I have always been a sap when it comes to movies. so that isn't a surprise. i think how much that comedic movie made me cry is the surprise.

In real life now... The first time i saw Maddux clap... i had to hold back tears. The first time I walked in his room and he was standing up in his crib was beyond emotional. Its amazing... the things i start to pay attention to. Everyone told me how different your emotions are once you have a baby... and i thought. Eh all these sappy girls are crazy. well its official I am a complete sap... thanks to this face....